Remember a few weeks back when I talked about Creative Estates? Right here. Remember? I was so excited to go. I don't get to do too much crafty stuff these days but I do love it. And hearing all about Creative Estates and the fun things they had planned sent my cold, craft-less heart all a-flutter. To say I was excited about going would be a slight understatement. I was thrilled! PLUS! I would be traveling in style in the Party Car with Steph and Tauni. It would be the perfect little escape for this overworked Mama.
And now? I can't go. When I realized the date I started getting unsettled. It's the weekend between Aid Appreciation Week and Teacher Appreciation Week which I am surprisingly in charge of. The PTA was desperate. But I thought I could make it work. Get everything done ahead of time, go a little crazy the week of, but everything would be fine. Then I looked at the soccer game schedule. The first game is on April 9. It will be Babs first game ever. And that just is one of those moments that I can't get back. How could I miss her first soccer game?!
So I made my decision (kinda) and put on my big girl panties. I sent the email to Tauni axing my crafty vacation. And I really thought I was okay with it. Until I hit "send" and started to cry. I guess I'm not all that good at being a grown up after all.
I keep telling myself it's just that time of life. The small sacrifices I make now will have a big pay off for my children in the future. And being home, spending time with my girls doesn't really feel like a sacrifice at all. Missing out on Creative Estates feels like a sacrifice, that's for sure. I really hope I made the right decision. But soon my girls will be so grown up and won't need me anymore. And then I can do all the things that I put off doing now. They are so worth it.